I Choose my dream. Not yours.

Janelle Newell | 09/09/26

I wanted to prove that I could. For all the people who wanted to be in my position, but never saw themselves. I hated being the only black person in class. I hated forcing myself to learn material that I couldn't care less about. I hated dealing with the pressure of having to repay my parents.

Why is that my problem?

I never liked ____.

I never liked a lot of things.

I just wanted to be good enough to get the opportunity. Wanted to prove to all the white and asian people here that I was just as good as them. I tried to ignore the stares or how every time I spoke directly at people or tried to be friendly, they'd look away like I didn't exist. If the thirst for power does this to people, I want no part of it. I'd rather live the rest of my life poor if the potential for wealth makes people this evil.

I keep getting told that my mother sacrificed so much for me to have an education, but it's not my responsibility to ease other people's doubts or thoughts of regret.

I set the standard for myself.

I don't care if your sacrifice is only worth it if I have to suffer. I don't care if this makes me sound selfish. If I live my life for you, I am already dead.

Who are you living for?